Tonight I have decided that I am giving up being a good girl for the summer, I am going to fuck shit up and not give a fuck. I am going to date whatever hot boy comes my way, no matter their background and I am going to stay up all night and go to work the next morning with the smell of his cologne still lingering on my clothes. And then I am not going to eat and after that I am going to binge like I always do because I don’t have the obedience for a proper diet so I starve myself like I did today, I’m gonna get skinny for vacation, I am going to have abs, and I am going to be tan and the only way to do those things is my destroying my body and giving myself cancer. You want happy Nikki? Well too fucking bad bitches, this is what you have now until further notice. Prim and proper Nikki just wont be here for the next few months and there is nothing anyone can do about it because I have given up on getting over you the right way.